Life

Well,
Certain things ain't easy for you to learn & catch up sometimes.
It's all about you and not comparing yourself with any others or learning for anybody around you.
We have to live for ourselves eventually.
Sometimes I pondered and wished, is there anyway for me to stop thinking and imagining in my mind. Because that brought down my dreams! Demoralised dreams of wanting to do these and thats.
And all that are just soooo not myself! Just because I wanna do them for someone elses, or any reasons? I thought it's worth it, but it's not!
It's not, true enough, maybe you'd saw what are those great things 'someone' did and also, learning. You wanted to do so too. Influenced. That's it.
Maybe at that point of time you really think that you suit perfectly of what 'someone''d learned.
Well, maybe when 'someone's gone you'll somehow find out the truth within yourself then.

Alas, I just wanna find and pull myself out within the inner side of me, which is the real me.
And which is the real me?
What held me up? I'm totally lost now!
Ugh, maybe just freaking study for 'N' now will do.
But no, someone could just help me out........

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